Epiphany

Sometimes being an adult is hard.
Sometimes being a professional is hard.
Sometimes, telling your ego to take a timeout is really hard.
Sometimes, you have to do it anyway.

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Yesterday, I received a harsh critique from a supervisor – void of tact or manners. Instead of encouragement or education, she double-underlined comments about how we don’t do things the way I had done them.

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Yes.     Ma’am.

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Naturally, I felt like a pile of poo. Steamy, stinky, mushy poo.
When the clock hit 5:00, I was out the door.

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Then, I went to Yoga, followed by Kirtan
(you can laugh – but don’t knock it ‘till you try it).
Next, I had a cold Guinness with a friend and we played 18 holes of virtual golf.

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I don’t know if it was the shivasna or the cold beer… but as I fell asleep, I finally felt a calm descend upon me.

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This morning, I walked into work, accepted all of the boss’s “suggested” changes and turned in my project without a single explanation or argument for the way I had done things.

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Why bother?

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The critique wasn’t about me.

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If the critique had been about me, there would have been some discussion.
There would have been some questioning to understand my methods.
There would have been encouragement for the things that I had done right.

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No… this critique was a power play.

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Later, I will go back through her comments to pull out the constructive criticisms.
I will leave the destructive ones alone.

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She can “win” this battle.

It will be lonely at the top, when she has lost all of the people she has torn down, all along the way.

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One thought on “Epiphany

  1. Just letting you know: your email notices arrive with text in pale blue or pink text and can’t be read. No, I’m not being critical. I’d like to be able to read your emails. LOL

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